Sunday, May 28, 2006
yesterdae in the mornin i woke up,went to meet janelle n priscilla.
we smoke n eat breakfast..than janelle cry.i almost cry too lahhs.
haiiss..den i went home...after tat i went to meet germaine.
cuz i wan to send xiner off.yupp..but went on the wae dere,
xiner text me sae she is goin off le.wha..i rush like fuck lahhs.
haiiss.den,i reach airport at 1329pm..i onlie have 1min.
i rush to the departure hall,i did not see anyone.
im so disappointed.but den i nvr show it out
in front of germaine.i keep on turnin back.but i nvr see anyone.so we
head towards to terminal one.xiner called me.den she sae she at terminal two.
so we waited for sky train to terminal two.den wen we get of the sky train,
she called and sae she is in terminal one.so we took the same train back to terminal one.
oh well.this is when my sadness started.现在的你不在想我..
i get off the skytrain n xiner appear dere.so she ask me wat i wanna sae..
den i oso got nothing to sae.den she sae goodbye to me.haiis..
den she walk away,germaine sort of sae me lahhs..
she sae ask me dun do things tt i will regret.den i sort of..
chase after her but..den hor..she like keep wantin to go..
so yupp..ermx..i saw her parents.den me n germ was like...
ermx..haas...den we just walk away..
den i sae her again at burger king..den germ reali wan kill me
le lohhx..keep askin me to go n give her the lollipop.
so i went up to her.den i just pass her the lollipop.and den turn away..
my tears is oreadi in my eyes.den we went to see the departure ting.
den we head towards the toilet.suay suay i saw xiner again lahhs.
ermx..den she was quenin up to go in.know what?i cant do anythin.
i cant even bid her goodbye for one last time.i hide behind the wall.
i kept on cryin.germ was like askin me not to cry.
n she sae so many people are starin at me..she sae summore i cry so loud.
got mehhx?haiiss.
den after tat..we take sky train back to terminal two.
i was like stil cryin like fuck lohhs.haiiss..den i was messagin...
germ was like sayin tt looks like esther ye..i keep starin at tt gal..
she look so familar but i dunno who.den her stead so tall keep starin at me.
i realise it was esther..me n germ run like hell lahs.
wherever we go,we tends to bump into esther.so yupp.
haiiss..den wen we we into the mrt dere,while waitin for mrt,
xiner n esther msg me at the same time lahhs.haiiss.
i mean is like.i feel so sad.haiis..
ermx den i wen to meet pris den wen down to bugis.
we played the arcade game.i miss xiner like hell.
den tingwen n janelle cum down to meet us.
den after tt we shop like mad.wherever i go owax have memories.
haiiss.i feel so sad suddenly.den tingwen n jan bought me a wallet.
which cost 13 bucks so sweet of them lahhs.
so touch...we went down to tingwens house after tt..
janelle ask me to go for priscilla.hahas
i have sum things on my mind..but im not tellin anyone.
wel,hahas..den i did a veri bad thing with janelle!
something veri veri veri bad!oh no.im guilty conscience.
but den,..yupp..den janelle went missing.worse stil.
is like so late le..veri worried for her lahhs..
den we thot is dunno who seatin at the playground.
i hold on to pris lahhs..den we three run away from tt gal.
but actually is janelle lo!oh no..den after pris's dad send me home.
that im oreadi over you.
i wont be the gal,
who use to love u.,
who use to be so obsess over u.
i wont be lovin u anymore.
i wont be dere for u anymore.
im lettin u go.
i have to bid goodbye.
its veri veri hard.
but i wil try..
if the onli wae to let u go,
is to stab my heart,
i wil do it.
i will try umpteen waes to give up.
it breaks my heart.
when u turn n walk away frm me.
all i can do is to cry.
i cant ask u to stay.
cuz u dun belong to me.
u dun belong to me anymore.
i can onli sae goodbye to u.
when u return,
u will see that..
i had enough.
i might change.
but i guess,its the onli wae to
let you go.
im sorry.
i just dun love u anymore.
esther ye,im letting you go!
i just dun love u anymore.
im not the rite one.
im not perfect.
i cause misery in ur life.
sorry..
but im goin now.
636pm.
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